Lens on EYEs

My very first time wearing contact lens.. haha

I've been looking at the lenses since I bought it and wondering how will I look with lens on..

yalah I want to be pretty~

I was so excited at first.. but not until I try to put on the lens.

It's so fustrating.. my hands kept on shivering and my eyes just wont let the lens in.. ARGH!..

I thought that would be easy..

After for like 20 mins of struggling .. finally I managed to put it on *phew*

my pupil did turned out larger then the normal size.

The colour is not really visible though..

.. or even closer..

.. unless I face up towards the light.

haha.. I showed my sisters and they didn't notice at all until I tell them .. ha I even thought I drop the lens somewhere.

I'm just any other typical girl who wants to be prettier =D

Cosmetic contact lens does make your eyes look prettier I can say.

Okay .. back to studies .. !!

Remind me again

How many days left? .. 38 days.

Gosh.. can't really describe my feelings now.

Although it's a few weeks left..

Guess what! I spend my whole Sunday combing my whole frizzy wig..

Yes I spent 10 hours sitting alone in the room and combing my orangee wig.

.. and now my whole body are aching especially my back bone .. have to walk like a pregnant lady the whole day XD

Plus, I spend my whole day doing Sejarah revision.. kinda dizzy now..

Anyway,

I'm not thinking about SPM these few days .. instead I'm thinking about stuffs to do after SPM..

What shall I study,

Where shall I work

What shall I do .. blah blah blah.. haha ..

Oh.. I'm thinking of getting a new wig !! .. cute blond ones XP

생일축하합니다 !

Happy 22th Birthday,
Da Jie !!

She's 22,
but she acts like 2.
She loves to watch korean drama,
but she loves us more.
She has lots of creative ideas,
but I don't understand most of them.
She has her sense of humor,
but her sense of fashion is much better.
She always stand upon her ideas,
but she'll still try to accept your idea.
She can sing,
but she can't reach for the high notes.
She like to hunts for shoes,
but she never hunts for socks.
She is easily inspired,
but she always inspires me.
She always keeps herself clean and neat,
but she never keeps her room clean and tidy.
She always talks about facts,
but I never listen to any of them.
She's crazy,
but she's cute....

... yea she's my da jie! .. no doubt.

♫♪ Evanescene

EVANESCENE

๑۩۞۩๑My Immortal๑۩۞۩๑

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me

๑۩۞۩๑Lithium๑۩۞۩๑

Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but God I wanna let it go

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show
Never wanted it to be so cold
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me

I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me?

Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow

Don't wanna let it lay me down this time
Drown my will to fly
Here in the darkness I know myself
Can't break free until I let it go, let me go

Darling, I forgive you after all
Anything is better than to be alone
And in the end I guess I had to fall
Always find my place among the ashes

I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me?

Lithium, don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, stay in love with mmm
I'm gonna let it go

Normal?

I'm not in a good mood recently.

The pressure is getting on my head..

and now I'm said to have personality problem?

And I do slowly realised that I do really have problem with my personality.

I admit I have split personality.. but it's not obvious .. duh~

I don't like to take orders.. I do everything my style my way.

Some my like who I am but some may think I have serious personality problem.

Plus, everyone had physcology problem it just depends how minor or major it is..

..says who? says my teacher.

I always keep my note book content neat..

eg. Whenever I writes, I always starts with a new chapter or new topic on a new page.

If I miss counted several line, I will tear off the whole page and start copying again..

I always clean my table..

whenever it get messy I'll stop studying and start tidy up my table..

Sometime I even put my books from tall to low , from A to Z..

Maybe these are the ways that I used as a medium to release my stress and tension.

Seventeen

お誕生日おめでとう !!

Wooopsy.. I'm officially 17 now .. haha no more 16++

Though I over slept and was late for Saturday school... and had to wait 10 minutes outside for the school gate to open.. =_=

On my birthday.. ehem.. our school had class 'Gotong-royong' but I didn't really help out for 5s1..
Soooorry.
We-the pandu puteris .. and some putera helped to clean our Taman Pandu Puteri..
And we painted the wall the whole day... was so so so tiring but after some praising and compliment from Puan Prema everything is worth it.

Many friends wished me 'Happy Birthday' and all the ahli pandu puteri sang birthday song to me.. haha so touching !!

Plus, Mr. Kuben spend me McD.. haha everything went into my hungry stomach.. Thanks !

Muaha I got some lovely presents..

from YuHua

from XiaoYu

from CherEe + ShinYi

Thanks to my lovely friends.. Muaks
Yau, HanRen, XiangChee, ShuihSen, KimSheng, MingRong, ChowKuan, Shin-Yi, CherEe, XiaoYu, YuHua, YuXin, SiewLing, HueyYan, HuiMei, SinYee, LeiTeng, Kevin ....

They had a 'surprise' birthday party for me...CherEe and Chow Kuan.
Everyone was playing around with the cake's cream.. kinda like cake war..
and I had my cream mask on my face.
Haha.. I'm really had a great fun today .. this year.

Later, I'm going to makan steambooooooot ! Yeah..

Arigato minna-san!!

Break Down

Prepared the Orentasi Pandu Puteri for a very very long time.

Actually we plan to do a camp but we are not allowed to stay overnight in the school due to safety problems..

struggling and struggling .. meeting and meeting..

Finally the day had come..

Everything went normal.. until I break down.

My brain started to became more and more like an erupting volcano.

My body can't really had the energy to move another step..

Although my friends advised me to go back home but I was too stubborn.

I couldn't let everything aside.

Until around 5pm I couldn't stand the fever anymore and I went back home.

I took my temperature.. and guess what.. 40.1 °C .. high fever..

Really had a hard time as the fever went on and off the whole day...

It's really funny when I always told the members too drink more water to avoid them fainting along the training.. haha